When Fear Meets Faith: My Journey with Endometriosis and Learning to Trust God in the Unknown
I did not plan to write this post. Honestly, there are parts of this journey I have held closely — not because I am ashamed, but because living through something and talking about it are two very different things. But I felt the nudge, and when God nudges you to share, you share.
So here it is. My truth about pain, uncertainty, surgery, loss, and the God who has been steady through every single moment of it — even the moments I was too afraid to pray anything more than just Lord help me.
For years, I lived with pain that I could not fully explain. Ovarian torsions — a condition where the ovary twists and cuts off its own blood supply — became something my body knew too well. I sought answers. I pushed through. I prayed. And in between the pain and the appointments and the uncertainty, I kept going, the way women do.
But eventually, my body demanded more than pushing through. What followed was an ovarian cystectomy, the removal of an ovary, and finally — a diagnosis that explained so much: endometriosis. Endometriosis is not just painful periods. It is a chronic condition where tissue similar to the uterine lining grows outside the uterus, causing pain, inflammation, and sometimes life-altering complications. Millions of women live with it, often undiagnosed for years. I was one of them.
“Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me." — Psalm 23:4
If I’m being honest, I was afraid. Genuinely afraid. Not the kind of afraid that looks pretty in a testimony. The kind that makes you lie still in the dark and wonder what your body is doing without your permission. The kind that makes you grieve something you did not even know you were holding onto. There were moments of real sadness too. Grief over the surgery. Grief over the ovary I lost. Fear of what all of this meant for my dream of becoming a mother. Being a woman of faith does not make you immune to those feelings — and I will not pretend otherwise.
But here is what I know about God: He does not require us to perform peace we do not feel. He meets us in the fear. He sits with us in the sadness. And He keeps showing up — in the form of a family member who calls at exactly the right moment, in a scripture that finds you before you go looking for it, in a random tiktok video that reminds you how loved you are.
I have had to constantly remind myself of His faithfulness — not as a spiritual bypass to skip past the hard emotions, but as an anchor. When fear tries to take the wheel, I return to what I already know to be true about God. He has been faithful in every season before this one. That track record matters.
“For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, do not fear; I will help you." — Isaiah 41:13
If you are in a season of medical uncertainty, chronic pain, or a diagnosis that has rearranged your sense of normal — I want you to hear this: your fear does not disqualify your faith. They can coexist. And in that coexistence, God still moves. Trusting God in the unknown does not always mean you have peace. Sometimes it means you choose to hold onto Him even when peace feels far away. That is still faith. That still counts.
I do not have a perfectly wrapped ending to offer you. The journey with endometriosis is ongoing. But what I do have is evidence, in my own life, that God has been faithful every single step of the way. And that is enough to keep walking. And I believe it is enough for you too.
Your fear does not disqualify your faith. And your valley does not determine your outcome.
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You have done hard things before. This is not the end of your story.
With love & truth,
SheKerria
